Thread:Quickrydina/@comment-4919485-20170414170102/@comment-4919485-20170611171136

It's alright. I never gave much thought to the way people chose to say goodbye, as much as potentially leaving things open with y'all. It would have been very nice to know your thoughts on our experience together, but I feel like the most respectful thing was to allow everyone to say bye the way they felt they needed to. And at that, everyone had their own way of saying it. You were removed, and played it along like it's just business and, I do admit, at first it felt like you didn't care aaaall that much, which would have been fine, just weird. But I understood it. I knew that was what you thought was to be expected from. 'Cause you and I have always been very straightforward, and I was very "here is my opinion/decision, It is set!", so, you felt like saying "the wrong thing" would possibly end up upsetting me, and you didn't want to end things that way, so you treated it with as much naturality as we treated everything we talked about. Emma's was a thing of its own. And I understood that. Sydney's too. So, everybody had their own way of responding to it and to me. I'm just glad that when it came to an end, people didn't hold anything against me, and they were kind and nice to me.

Time does put things into perspective. I needed to leave. I knew I needed it. And Emma did too. We had been talking about it for almost 2 years, actually. And she knew that I NEEDED to leave, but whatever kept roping me back in. I needed to leave because, a couple of years ago, I realized I was bliding myself to my problems outside of our group, and it always made me feel like whatever was going on was tomorrow's problem... Except that I didn't always have a tomorrow to solve things. So, with time, and now living at my healthiest, I am looking back on us, and I think I can finally take in all the things I learned. And that makes me apreciate all of you more than I ever did (not that I didn't before).

That is so exciting! I can't wait to read about it when you tell us that it all went great! I'm wishing you all the fortune in the world for your future endeavors. They will be hiring you back once you get your master's.

I will catch y'all up on my life soon. I haven't had time to sit and think on it, 'cause sometimes you just go, go, go, without thinking about it, until you finally stop and say "wow! So, I made it here." Hope to hear back from you soon. Love you.