Thread:Quickrydina/@comment-4919485-20170414170102/@comment-4919485-20170617161018

Exactly. That's what I meant. Like, our feelings are our feelings, we can't control them, and we have no other option but to feel them. Yeah, maybe, should I go back, I'd react to it differently. But, if I was hurt, that was my momento to be hurt, and the only way out of it would be through it. You know what I mean?

I think it is absolutely great that you're evolving. And, also, don't feel ashamed of who you used to be, 'Cause in 5 years from now, 2017 Zach will be "an immature idiot", and then, 10 years after that, it'll happen again. Point is:  whenever we learn something, we want to desperately detach from that version of us who did not know what we know now, but we gotta remember that there's no way the younger us could know what the older us knows, because that knowledge only came with time and experience. So, holding a lack of experiece against ourselves, really, isn't fair. For example: I've learned a lot about being fair to oneself. But, that only came after a lot of mistakes and "immaturity". I've learned that we're always concerned about being fair to others, but so often we forget about being fair to ourselves. And, usually, being fair to ourselves has a natural feeling of being selfish and egotistical, so, we overlook it. It's just a feeling, though, not the truth. But, you can only be your best to others - on the outside - when you're at your best inside.

And, IDK if that's gonna make it better for you, but, it's a good sign that you've been through that journey. It means you didn't have worse problems to force your hand, and it means that you were headed towards growth. The bad thing is when we stagnate.

I've already made this longer than it should be, and preach-ier than I should have. But you did grow. And the thing I admire about you is also the thing I feared for you. It's your discomfort with staying "as you are". You're always looking to know the next thing, and be the next person, and stand at the next place. You're always looking to better yourself. The reason I fear that is because, sometimes, the eagerness to change and improve will make you out-walk your shoes, and will put you in places your life is not yet ready to be at, so, there's gonna be that awkward phase, and the discomfort of having to adjust yourself, until your mind catches up to your heart. But I have no doubt in my mind that all of that means that you're gonna grow up to be an amazing man, who doesn't just look at the world; he sees it. And you're a lot more intelligent than you give yourself credit for. For real.

You've inspired me in your own ways, and taught me things too.